My Name is Gladys Javiela Jordan.
I was born and raised in the church. Both my parents are pastors, I was reared to love God and obey. To obey because it was my duty, my obligation. I was brought up to be the model child. But behind my façade I was a deeply hurt and broken little girl who I felt had to grow up way to quickly. My childhood was a mixture of Jesus and abuse. And when the first person came to say they loved me I fell hard and thought I could will this person to love Jesus. My biggest lie was if only, if only I was a better mother, better wife, better sister, better daughter, better Christian, just better then everything would be all right. If I just worked harder then everything would be all right. If only…
I knew I loved the Lord from a very young age but there was always a part of me that felt stuck, I wanted to Love God fully but I couldn’t. I knew something was wrong but I wasn’t even aware what it was. I blamed myself constantly if only I could be better. My mind was a battlefield where I was fighting alone and losing badly, deeply wounded and deeply alone.
I was very fortunate to come to Grace Restoration. The Lord knew how much I needed HIM. The real Jesus, The real God, not the one I thought I knew, or heard about or was told about. At Grace Restoration, I was able to confront the lies I had about God. Confront the lies I had believed but more importantly, God was able to show me through His word who he really is. At Grace Restoration, the Lord was able to restore, renew, and remake my broken relationship with God.
In that process God has redeemed many relationships in my life, including the one with my son. When I learned and believed who God was and what Jesus did for me on the Cross I was able to believe what God’s word says about me. That I am his beloved, that I am chosen, that I am seen and heard by the One True King. That there is nothing to fear, that I am safe. That I am the daughter of the Most High.
I invite you to come and set up a meeting. Stand where the Lord wants you to be, on the front linesh, like David not afraid of the giant in front of you because you trust the Lord so deeply you know He is with you. Come learn and see what God can do.
Psalm 25:4-5
Show me your ways, Lord, teach me your paths. Guide me in your truth and teach me, for you are God my Savior, and my hope is in you all day long.